The MOM balance

 The phone call came. Have you seen your son? His babies spent the night with Nana & Papa while he worked. But no I haven't seen him yet it's 5:30 am on Thursday. Why? We found his car but not him. Is it a wreck? Yes mam. Is he in the river? I don't know. The noise in my head sounded like tidal waves. I kept asking who are you? The sheriffs dept now slow down and breath. My husband tried to take the phone but I couldn't give it to him it was like I needed her to keep telling me something to get past this. I saw his Dad dialing his cell phone his sister who had came home the night before jumped out of bed and started calling on her phone. So much commotion all I wanted to do was find him I became panicky. The last 2 times those calls came so many years ago, yet only yesterday, they were dead. But no no no no not this time not again. I hung up and called go to the house in town PLEASE. Then the call came again we found him he is OK bleeding bruised but OK. Now I wanted to throw up. He called and I all I could do was cry inside hearing his voice. After the moment I realized my mom had him she was making everthing OK. I became the daughter for a moment in time I let her make it OK it was all in her hands and I needed that. I needed to get my footing. Then I became grandma and collected the babies and headed to take over as MOM again. My balance returning, my breathing stable and with a stronger spirit knowing he was left to us again.

The Budding Artist

 Those little hands so inspired by ideas in their minds. The excitement shining in their eyes as something transforms from the clay they are using. To me as the Nana anything they make is precious but my artist balance wants to see what they are seeing and encourage them as I once was encouraged. To have them explain in there excitement what each piece is. Sometimes I am amazed at what they come up with each child so extreme from the other. It is a reminder to realize "Art" is seen in so many different facets and phases and mediums it should be enjoyed for what is. So many times I see and think huh don't get it or its to simple or to much. But with my budding artist it balances me and helps me see clearer with an open mind. I must remember a closed mind may miss an amazing experience.

Productive Balance

  Today I worked outside in the beautiful weather. I was positive about all the work that was accomplished today. It left me with time to work on my garden fence. Blog. Call my mother, my daughter and grandmother. Explore a couple of trails through the thick brush I hadn't seen. And ready some pictures to transfer to glass. I feel like balance was aquired today. I used to take the mornings for me and my agenda. My husband always gives it to me. But now we've decided to get going ASAP to get our list of stuff done where we require each others help. It seems to free up more time. Knowing things are done and nobody is waiting on me, I feel less harried. Sunday is our only day home together so Balance is Required.

ALL OF ME

I am so excited for the New Year it's like a clean slate to start scheduling and planning. Plan #1 Keep up with my blogging. My hopes are high for the coming year Balance Required is such a reality for myself and most everybody so planning is part of it. I am finding scheduling all facets of me including family is just a few months old but I think it's how it's going to work. So once I train myself and those around me it will be easy street :) :) :). A little humor goes along ways.